Only 10 more days. This makes me anxious. I can’t wait to be down in Georgia and see what I am capable of. I have had a very unsettling last couple of weeks of training. With track and baseball in full swing, running has well…been difficult. This post is a little disjointed and kind of just thought to keyboard so I might ramble a bit! 🙂
I am having to run at different times, different days and have missed a few runs. My training has been good though. During my runs I am hitting the paces I want to hit, but still anxious. Not nervous or worried about completing it. I know I can run the half. I know I will run it well for the most part unless something really goes wrong. But it has been a long time since I have run a half and been healthy. October of 2014 to be exact. I have participated in half marathons healthy since then but not run one on my own. For me. That’s where the anxiety comes in. Can I run as good as I did then? Can I run better? Will the downhill kill my quads? Have I trained enough hills? I will find out next week!
I have always been very confident in running a race. Knowing what time I will run, how it will feel, etc. This time I don’t know. This unknown is really unfamiliar with me. I kind of like it. I want to (and should) PR. I just need sub 9:18 for that and well….if I don’t do that, I will be disappointed. I am not going to lie. I put a lot of pressure on myself to perform well and since my training has been getting a bit scrambled I worry that come race day my legs are just not going to hold up the way I want them too. I plan on not really checking my Garmin at all. I don’t want to control my pace through technology.
The course is 5 miles of slight rolling terrain, 7 miles down the mountain, and one very rolling mile to the finish. I just don’t want my legs to fall off and have the last mile be disastrous! This will be the first race Kevin has ever been at to watch me finish. He was at Kal-Haven but it was a relay and I ran my part and he saw me run that but….this is still different to me. I don’t want to fail in front of my kids and him. And by fail I mean not perform my best…which could happen but I want to finish strong! lol! Yep…I think too much! 🙂
So training….like I mentioned earlier I have been hitting my paces, but its my weekly mileage I haven’t been hitting. I have been so busy helping with track, I only ran twice last week. And I pushed my “long” run from Saturday to Sunday. This is unlike me. I don’t deviate or change things. So I have run a ton less miles that I should have for the month. How will this change race day? What fitness have I lost? Endurance? Speed? Or was the little break good for me? Hmmmm…what do you think? I am undecided at this time. My training for the rest of this cycle should be normal but I am still wondering.
Thoughts like this don’t creep in until I start running. Sunday and yesterday both consisted of me starting off my run with my legs just feeling very heavy. My head wasn’t in either of them but I knew I needed to get shit done. So I kept going and things felt better as time progressed. My legs never feel heavy when I start to run but these last two were awful. I am hoping that as my training gets back to normal that goes away and I can relax. On a good note once they loosened up, hard wasn’t so hard anymore. 🙂
Last thought for you…my legs have been swelling just a slight bit each day at work (I sit all day). I think this could be part of why they felt heavy when running? I have had this in the past but it come and goes. Darn unactive office life. 😦