After a short hiatus I am back. Life happens and then normalcy continues….
If you have the need to watch the most annoying video in the world go here. Now I warn you, it is one of those videos that is stupid but you can’t help to watch. So, let me know what you think!
I love reading about the success and the not so good stuff of other runners. It makes it more real. The more training I do for my marathon, the more I don’t want to try and sugar coat everything to sound better or seem better than it really is. Training for a marathon is HARD. Running is HARD, why do so many people want others to see their world as much better than it really is? These hard parts and how you get through them are more helpful to others than the easy peasy runs/races/PR’s. I mean those are great too but hell we are all human and I know this is easy for no one!!
With that said:
Two months from now I will be running my first marathon. I am excited and also really starting to work on pulling myself out of the world of doubt. It is easy to tell someone to trust their training. It is easy to speak positively about someone else’s capabilities. I find it much harder to trust my own training and keep myself afloat.
It is so bad that even though I know I can run it, I am seriously doubting my ability to run a half this coming Sunday with some friends. They are planning on running their first half and I am going to run with them. I am going to do a decent length warm up and then finish the 17 miles I have on schedule after the race. Why I have a fear that I won’t be able to run it is beyond me! Stress most likely.
I have had some very awesome runs. I can see the improvements in time, distance, the way my body responds etc. But I can also see the bad. I run almost all of my runs alone. This sucks! I love to run with others. So Saturday I did make D run 5 of my 15 miles with me. We ran into town and the hubs came and picked him up. It was nice to talk to someone while running. I miss that. Unfortunately, nobody is around my same training pace and distances that I know. We are all on such different plans. That is why Sunday will be great, running with my friends and going their pace for the half will be a great change yet will still be perfect for my training. I think I am starting to pick myself apart while I run do to having so much time by myself to think. Anyone else do that?