I have been thinking about racing A LOT lately! I think it is due to not running a ton since October and not racing at all since then either! So I wanted to talk about something I have been thinking a lot about! Pre race jitters! Now, I am not talking night before can’t sleep stuff. I am straight up talking about self doubt, sizing up, can’t believe you are out here with all these great runners that are about your hand you your ass kind of jitters! I have them, every time I race. Even if I know deep down I can place in my AG, I have them.
How a person looks or dresses shouldn’t have an effect on how fast I think they are!! I should not worry about whether or not I think they can beat me but, I do! I want to be faster, I want to place, I want to be confident at the start of every race!!!!<—that last sentence rhymed accidentally! Go me!!
For example, I had these feelings at a race (5k) over the summer I ran with D. We got there plenty early, picked up our bibs, t-shirts and made a bathroom stop. We then headed out to warm up. We ran about a mile or so then stopped to stretch. While stretching a car pulled up and two people got out. One male, and one female. Not that odd right?
My thoughts went like this:
“Oh no….look at her….she is a serious runner…..crap…she is probably in my AG too….shit….what now…look at him…he looks like he is going to kick ass….but her….she is going to beat me….BAD….oh man….this is not good…..why….why”
Then I looked at D and told him. He said “so”….and the thoughts continued.
“….so?….so?….really kid….so is not an option….she is going to beat me!…..doesn’t he realize this….ugh…oh crap almost go time….here is to her kicking my ass…..”
We finished the race, it was small so they were taking sticks with your place on it then writing it down on a big poster board to show who got AG placings. I am always nosey at small races and look…don’t you? I was first in my AG….then D said “hey mom…there’s that lady you thought would beat you.” She wasn’t even finished yet. Hmmmm….did I learn anything from this? NOPE! Not at all! I judged her off of appearance and beat her, but still keep doing the same thing over and over!!!
Why am I bringing all this up now? Well, I am running a 10k this weekend and I want to win my AG! I want to place!! But, most importantly, I don’t want to feel fear at the starting line!! I don’t want to worry about someone else’s race. Just mine! Trusting my training and evict those negative thoughts!
These other people…they won’t be there tomorrow or the next day. They are not going to make or break my race or abilities. I run for fitness, I run for pleasure, I run for strength and I RUN FOR ME!!!!
Do you ever think like this?
What do think about at the starting line?
Any good tips to distract myself from this?